Today is a day of grieving

I’ve been a fan of electronic dance music for maybe more than two years now. Basically I’m still an infant as a fan, but I’ve been trying to chug as many tunes as possible. The man responsible for making me fall in love with this kind of music (to be precise: falling in love with trance music) is none other than Ferry Corsten.

Ferry single-handedly made trance to what it is today (according to almost everywhere on the web), and spanning more than 20 years of experience with producing various genres of electronic dance music, it’s kinda easy to see him experiment with almost everything.

Just not this. Remixing a Justin Bieber song, for someone of his caliber is just really… I actually don’t know what to think. Or feel.

I thought it was a hoax. I genuinely thought some guy remixed it and just put Ferry’s name. That it was some kind of deliberate attempt to… I dunno, whatever. But after a day, my hero, the guy who made trance meaningful for me, confirmed that he did, in fact, remix a song of JB’s.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m not angry, at all. Nor will I ever. I love Ferry so much. But I can’t help feeling hurt for some reason. I’m still a fan, a big one at that, but I feel the need to mourn. He’s brought EDM-lovers so much for two decades, those will not be forgotten. But this? I dunno.

Hello. I’m a Trance-aholic.

I haven’t been into trance that long. I’ve only been introduced to the genre when I went to Innovation Black 2010. The featured DJ of the night was Ferry Corsten, and I had no idea who he was. A few hours into the night, I was hooked. I’ve been to other Bigfish raves (aka “dance parties”) before, but none was able to make it this life changing. Nothing this significant, anyway.

I went to YouTube the following week to check out some of Mr. Corsten’s stuff. One of the first videos to come up was Radio Crash. “Nice title,” I thought. I clicked it, waited for it to load, then BAM! Memory overload. My mind went back instantly to the night that he played here. “Holy shit!” Music can be a very powerful mnemonic device, but I had no clue how powerful. I remembered exactly what happened. Once the chorus of the track comes on (or the drop, I don’t think that can be classified as the chorus), I visualize the night, my friend jumping along towards the front. I remember her dancing. I remember all of us having the time of our lives.

“I gotta share this on Facebook!” I posted, then tagged my friends who were with me that night. “Hey, d’you remember this track?” I asked. They had no recollection. I was the only one who had a vivid memory of what happened when that particular track played. From then on, a part of my world changed.

I used to have albums from commercial/mainstream musicians. Now, I only listen to tracks produced by Ferry Corsten, Tiesto, Armin van Buuren, Sander van Doorn, Cosmic Gate, Alex M.O.R.P.H., Rank 1, John O’Callaghan, Kyau and Albert, Jochen Miller, Orjan Nilsen, Giuseppe Ottaviani, Above and Beyond, Gabriel and Dresden, Solarstone, and so much more. Their music, I dunno, it just makes me feel like I’m connected to this invisible force of peace and I dunno what else. It’s comforting, and I feel so alive whenever I listen and dance to these types of tracks.

And I friggin’  love to dance, and I am by no means trained formally in the art, but I guess, freestyling is just my thing (I’d love to learn proper technique, though). I love the feeling of trance music just rushing from my ears to my brain to my fingertips and it just makes me want to move and express whatever I’m feeling.

Sigh. And you know what? I’m lucky to have found a bunch of people equally or more passionate than I am when it comes to trance. I feel at home with them, even though I feel like such a noob when it comes to my musical knowledge. I’ve got a long way to go, but hey, I believe the journey’s going to be worth it.

To Via, Tina, and Christmas, I hope we get to hang out soon. Thank you for the company during my “trance formative” months. Hahahahaha… I miss you guys.

To Jeff, Paul, and Marc, what can I say? The lightshows are mind-blowing. Let’s do it again!

To Goldy, Steve, Agi, Odie, Rachel, Ness, Martin, Ehm, Barny, AJ, and the other peeps I regularly bump into at Bigfish, party on!

To Jason, Marx, and Marty, thank you for making me “ampon” nung Hed Kandi. Hahahaha… See you guys soon!

To Pat, Marti, JP, Cam, Renee, Miguel, Timi, Abbie, Napoleon, Woody, Tommy, Mark, Kris, Lotty, Xandee, Tosh, Kyle, Lexi, Marco, Jay, Koko, Zoe, Luther, Roland, Tony, Rejie, and the rest of TTD: I’m so thankful I’ve met you guys. Yung mga hindi ko pa nami-meet in person (Chico and Nixx come to mind), I’d love to meet you. Grabe, sobrang… It still feels so surreal na I’m hanging out with you guys. 😀

See you guys on the 11th? And the 24th? And the 25th? Spread the love! 😀

By uberpsi Posted in Rave